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Name: Aaron
Birthday: 3/23/1984
Gender: Male
Interests: people, college football (Go Big Red), weather phenomenons, country swing dancing, learning about God, sleep, food, movies, and music
Expertise: controlling my floor (RA), football, guitar(somewhat), weather forecasting, ice block sledding, procrastination, and enjoying life.
Occupation: Student
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MSN: abowl4jesus@hotmail.com
Member Since:
12/23/2004
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| "Taste and see that the LORD is good. Oh, the joys of those who trust in Him! Let the LORD's people show Him reverence, for those who honor Him will have all they need. Even strong young lions sometimes go hungry, but those who trust in the LORD will never lack any good thing." Psalm 34:8-10 In the animal kingdom, lions are at the top. They have the ability to get whatever they may need. It is believable that a weak young lion could lack a need, but a strong young lion should never be in need. However, according to Psalm 34:10, even strong young lions go hungry. So despite the strong young lion's strength to control the environment or manipulate/finesse the situation, they go hungry. Likewise, it should be no different for us humans. Despite the measure of strength, self-determination, ability, or whatever else, I cannot meet my needs. "But those who trust in the LORD will never lack any good thing." | | |
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"What can I do
with my obsession?
With the things I cannot see
Is there madness in my being
Is it the wind that blows the trees?
"Sometimes
you're further than the moon
Sometimes you're closer than my skin
And you surround me like a winter fog
You've come and burned me with a kiss
"And my heart burns for you
And my heart burns
"And I'm so filthy with my sin
I carry pride like a disease
You know I'm stubborn God and
I'm longing to be close
You burn me deeper than I know
I feel lonely without hope
I feel desperate without vision
You wrap around me like a winter coat
You come and free me like a bird
And my heart burns for you
And my heart burns for you"
by Martin Smith
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| This blog is dedicated to Travis Talman not Tyler Talman. The
only thing I can think to write about is my Valentine's Day. I
hung out with some awesome friends.
I went to a movie with two girls. The movie was about
prostitution in India, drug dealers, and particularly a run away kid,
and the whole movie was in Hindi with subscripts. I have never
had such a great V-day!!! Actually it really wasn't that
bad. It made me feel sorry for all of those people in India and
made me grateful for where I am. It was up-lifting in a
disguise. On another note, Devin Walentine and I found a camp in
the US that does tours for high schoolers around the US, Europe, and
Australia. It looked really cool. I could be a counselor
for a tour and go to the Hawii and Australia tour for 30 days all for
free I presume. It would be intense, but I think it would be
completely worth it. Tempting!!! Would that be living for
that which matters most? Hope all is well for everyone!!!
Aaron
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| | Currently Listening: Stay |
It has been a while since I last posted. Hopefully I will post
more consistently, but no promises just yet. Tonight I went to
Java Love for Nav night. Some interesting questions and
principles where said. A lot of it was stuff I heard before
because Jason Oswald, one of the speakers, meets with me weekly.
But nonetheless good times. I was challenged at how I honor
women. Do I manipulate or minister? Or are my motives to
manipulate or minister? It is so easy to get in the game of
flirting and hanging out with women and then to find the woman that I
like the most. I start to spend time with her, but keep my
distance because I don't have the green light to pursue just yet.
So I continue to talk with her about everything. I basically
start to act like a couple with her but I don't define it just yet
because I know it isn't God's timing. So why do I do that?
To gain all of the emotional and security benefits from the
relationship, but I also don't feel guilty because I am not actually in
the dating relationship like I know God doesn't want me to be in.
So I deceive myself into believing this lie that I am obeying God when
I am actually disobeying God. This is worse than blatantly
disobeying God. Am I ministering or manipulating? It
is what it is!! I should be careful at how I start bonding with
any female. If we start to bond but am not willing to pursue her
and be committed and do something with it, I am manipulating her and
will just hurt her. This is not the love of God, but the love of
self. What should I do then? I should pursue God and honor
her heart by not leading her on to something prematurely. Just
because her family, friends, and she loves me and I love her, does that
mean I should pursue her? Could it be that God is seeing how I
trust Him? What does God want anyway? What does he
promise? Does He promise that we will be married? Does life
begin once one is married? What lies do I believe about
relationships? Can God be trusted with valuable things?
Does God only help those that help themselves? Am I ministering
or manipulating in this relationship?
Aaron
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| Have you ever hoped in something? Hoped in something so ardentlythat you meditated on it constantly, finding comfort in thishope. And so time progressed, the meditation on the hope started to change you at the very heart and mind that you began to interpret life from the lens of this hope. And before you knew it, you had become somebody that you didn't even know. You had become transformed and arrived at a place that you didn't even recognize or understand how you got there. The thought of this new landscape is scary, but this fear causes you just to cling closer to the hope that brought you to this new place. Then truth invades this scene only to find that this was just an empty hope, a complete lie despite of whatever immeasurable amount of hope you possessed. The passion at which you had hope did not matter. Pain and hurt sets in. Your heart is ripped to pieces and you believe you will bleed to death. Your identity is gone. Who are you? What is there now to hope in? Well, I have never felt that pain or hurt and hope I never will. But in BS tonight we studied hope. Hope has four components that I was able to identify: desire, not yet, confidence, and patience. Without either of these components hope will cease to be. But the question is what is this hope based in? If it is anything besides God, it will eventually fall apart. Only Him and Him alone because of His character can we have hope. What do I hope in? I have had some heart break due to false, empty hopes. They really bite, but I still have a superseding hope. Image people who don't have hope in God. They are in the story that is listed above. That truly is a tragedy!! But those who have hope in God have the same story, but a different ending. A hope that is not empty!!
Aaron
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